Okay, so I lied. I really tried to be Carrie Jane Ryan, but she just isn't me anymore. I'm Atheria. But, I've made a compromise. I'm using both names now since I am still trying to mesh the old me with the new me to find balance. When I meet people, I introduce myself as Atheria...unless it's a very conservative situation. ;-) I am tempted to break into song...I've gotta be meeeeeeee. I've gotta be meeeee!
:-)
Atheria
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Sunday, August 30, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Name Change & IKEA!
I am changing my name...AGAIN. I mean, I'm not changing it to something drastically different, like I did in 1999, but the friends I've made the past 10 years are going to be confused. While meditating in the summer of 1998 a voice clearly said to me, "You are not Carrie Ryan, you are Atheria." I looked up and said, "WHAT?!" It repeated, "You are not really Carrie Ryan, you are Atheria." Then I said, "What?! (I can be a bit slow at times.) Spell it." Then the voice spelled, "A-T-H-E-R-I-A". Now me, being the stubborn person I am, promptly blew this experience off and forgot about it. Fast forward to March of 1999.
While minding my own business living my life, I suddenly got this OBSESSIVE feeling I needed to change my name. I kept poo-pooing it and argued with spirit that the name was too weird and exotic for me. I basically said, "Forget it. I'm not changing my name." Well, when I don't listen to spirits' nudging, they can get aggressive. They found it quite funny to see to it that over the span of a week everywhere I went, people would come up to me and say (out-of-the-blue) that they had changed their name and it was the best thing they'd ever done. Seriously, this kept happening. Finally, I got fed up and said, "Fine! I don't understand what this is about, but I'll change my damn name to this exotic sounding name no one is going to understand!"
I legally became just ATHERIA in May of 1999 and stayed that way until June of 2007 when I felt it was best to go back to my birth name, Carrie Jane Ryan, for all legal/official things while still going by Atheria in terms of day to day use. Trust me when I say that having just one name causes a lot of computer problems and other problems. I almost wasn't allowed into Costa Rica in 2005 because they thought my passport was fake. Besides the technical issues, I wanted a more conservative name "just in case" I ever needed to hide metaphysical me.
By the way, everyone's soul has a name...and I am 100% convinced Atheria is my soul's name. It'll remain that way forever...no matter what body/name I'm incarnating into next (Though I am having a hissy fit currently and flat out refuse to incarnate ever again. I'm done. I'm tired. My friends laugh and say, "You'll change your mind when it's time again." Bah!)
Anyway, a couple of things are going on right now that have made me rethink being Atheria. I'm getting confused about how to introduce myself because at work I go by CJR and when I go to the doctor, etc., I have to use CJR...but everywhere else I introduce myself as Atheria. I've slipped up and accidentally called myself Carrie when I shouldn't and vice versa. The other issue is that I want to be taken seriously as a psychic, and I'm starting to wonder if having such an airy-fairy name makes people a little less sure about my (1) sanity and (2) professionalism. As a side note, I'm also getting tired of having to repeat my name numerous times and spell it when I meet someone because they don't get it.
The corker was when I was talking to my VERY gifted British medium friend today and she told me that when spirit gives her a message for me, and it's a serious message, they call me "Carrie"....but when it's some kind of lighthearted message, they call me "Atheria". She completely felt that if I want to be taken more seriously as psychic, I should use Carrie Ryan....and just be Atheria in my heart.
To anyone who hasn't changed their name before, you might not get how important a name is. A name has a vibration associated with it. When I became Atheria, I changed....literally...doors opened to me the day I finally accepted the name. I feel like Atheria. I don't feel like Carrie....but....with time I'm sure I'll adjust. I'm also a little haunted by the first thing a very good medium said to me many years ago (long before Atheria showed up) when he shook my hand in greeting, "Your name is bad for you. You need to change it. It's so wrong for you it's causing you harm." ACK! I pray he was/is wrong about that one.
I will try to mesh Atheria with Carrie Ryan and end up with a balanced person. :-) Oh, that reminds me of what another medium said to me in 2005 when she read me. She picked up on the name change years prior and said that my deceased relatives weren't thrilled with the new name (hahaha) but that their main concern was that I left too much of myself go when I became Atheria and that I needed to bring back some of the old Carrie....I had dropped too much of me.
I'm rambling on too long. The point is, although my soul is Atheria....from now on I'm Carrie Jane Ryan. Now I can make jokes about the movie "CARRIE". ;-)
On a completely different topic, I went to wonderful IKEA today!! WHOOP! Goddess, I love that store. I took a bunch of pictures. I want everything!
http://s148.photobucket.com/albums/s18/Atheria444/IKEA08082009/
Blessed be,
Carrie / Atheria / Whoever
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